Ridiculed, patronized, pushed away, cast aside / All alone, by myself, always on the outside / Looking in, dont fit in, thats the way its always been / And the way it will be - Everyones an enemy / In this world full of lies, everyone betrays / And honesty is met with deceiving ways / Hollow gestures and false concern / If you open up, then youre gonna get burned / Been cheated, mistreated, broken man, defeated / No one wanted or needed any part of me / Been busted, disgusted Betrayed by those I trusted / Nothing but a hole where my heart used to be / This negative out look, I really cant control / All I see is smut as the truth unfolds / It shatters the illusion and opens my eyes / And I dont want to, but I despise / Everything I see and even myself / Im in a sick state of mental health / Life knocked me down, now sorrow obsessed / Thats why my tolerance gave it a rest / BREAK!

From day one, the very beginning / I knew I never had no chance at winning / All the way back to my childhood / That was when I was told I was no good / Always put down for not doing things "right" / All that pain and misery gave me the might / And the strength to push through all the abuse / With vengeance I'll hang this world by a noose / Bitter thoughts inside my head / My faith in people is all but dead / For me to trust is so damn hard / Always someone out to get me / Overcome by anxiety / I just can't seem to let down my guard / Against the grain I always seem to fall / When confronted with people who's minds are small / It's not a choice but a fact of my being / That my perspective no one else is seeing / Like a fish out of water always out of place / I see a mask of lies in every human face / There's no escape and one thing I know / I'm at odds wherever I go / It will be with me until I die / My natural instinct to defy / Subversive to the status quo / Born to be authority's foe / I'll never succumb to the powers that be / I'm always gonna be the adversary

My whole existence is crumbling down / I can’t seem to wear anything but a frown / A nervous breakdown, I’m about to go berserk / I try to keep it in, but it doesn’t seem to work / I am the master of my own self-destruction / Planted in me is the seed of dysfunction / This instability and overwhelming fear/ erupts into anger as I drink through my tears / I must suppress it, keep it inside / From my inner conflict, I try and hide / My daily grim existence / Will it ever cease? / These scars from with, will they ever be released? / This war inside my head, will it ever end? / My grip on reality always seems to bend / These sick fucking head games are tearing me apart / I just can’t seem to calm this dissension in my heart / Don’t know what to do, don’t know what to think / My only way to cope is to find some booze and drink / Vice after vice like a gun at my head / Filling a void with destruction and dread / NEVER ENDING DREAD – day after day / I must tread on and face what comes my way / The face of adversity is laughing at me / tormenting my fortune, bringing me to my knees / Hard I must fight / With hate I stand strong / Bow to no one and right all my wrongs / Out of spite of my enemies to never relent / Overcome the odds / Steamroll the opposition / I don’t know how long I can keep trying / Day after day I come closer to dying / Can’t let it get to me, I must look ahead / Won’t let these defeats put my world in a dread

From the chains of catastrophe, the hands have broken free / Ready to unleash their fury on me / Losing round after round in this depression bout / At the end of the tunnel, I still don’t see a way out / Exit this life of rejection / Cursed and unstable with this rejection / That the world has handed down / I don’t run concurrent with what’s going on around / I’ve hit a new ALL TIME LOW / I’ve got no direction, nowhere to go / My life has no meaning, I never feel right / Always feel empty LIVING IN SPITE / Everything good ends up in a hearse / That’s why I assume the worst / A textbook failure at everything I try to do / A basketcase, fucked up again / What else is new? / Nothing changes / Everything just stays the same / This life we’re ;iving is a cutthroat game / That I don’t wanna play / Or even come out on top / Just want all this confusion and heartache to stop / The meds help a little / But it’s still hard to cope / The only end I see is hanging from a rope / Cruel nature of humanity makes life a living hell / My body’s free / But my soul’s in a prison cell Close

All hope is abandoned / All faith is forgotten / I've confined myself to this psychological cage / For all the good times and oppurtunities I've missed / It Hurts to know I can't turn back the page / Always looking back I seem to dwell / No time for dreams in this wishing well / The past haunts the future like a living joke / Hopeless aspirations blown up in smoke / Despair clouds my mind like a thunderstorm/ It’s raining, it’s freezing and I can’t get warm / Compassion sold out and love is no longer / Harsh cold betrayal can only make me stronger / I sometimes feel I live my life in vain / Every dream I've had has only brought me pain / It seems that everything I've loved, I've lost / I've burned almost every bridge I've ever crossed / But I can't turn back the hand of time / So I'll strike the match and raise a toast to Yesterday's Wine / Aging with time / The bright new day is looking old and dark / Regardless of it all I'm gonna leave my mark / I'm born to lose, my every hope is almost gone / It's so hard to face an empty dawn / Sometimes when the night calls it a day / I wake up down in a lost kind of way / In a house built on sorrow I am caught / I remember things better left forgot

Since a very young age, I remember the dread / The sense of disaster that leads straight to my head / The unknowing collapse that will surely arrive / Just when things are going great and I start to feel alive / A false sense of security begins to set in / That positivity that always wears thin / Just when Im about to feel happy and content / I find my last bit of luck has been spent / My fate is crushed hard like a crash in the street / To my pessimistic ways I am forced to retreat / To hate and never trust is a way to react / Im Losing touch with my sanity / Im Ready to snap / Im losing control / Mental trauma consumes me whole / The last of my marbles are falling to the trap / Dont know if its coming / but Im Ready to snap / Desperation Ive cried / Loneliness inside / And I just drank a bottle of Jack / So youd better watch your step because / Im ready to snap / The arrogant depraved that inhabit the Earth / Their weak pathetic ways are no value or worth / Pure disgust and hate in the deepest sense / Is what I feel for these pawns and their ignorance / Id like to put them all six feet in the dirt / An act of retribution for all of the hurt/ That they’ve inflicted and the pain that they’ve instilled / In my dream world they would all be killed / To suffer is to exist and that is a fact / I cant deal with this reality / Im Ready to snap Close