Everything happens for a reason or so that's what I'm told / I have a hard time believing this as I sit here growing old / Cold and desolate, filled with fear / There is no one that holds me dear / Or a single soul who genuinely cares / Just a facade of concern that leaves me bare / I don't know how long I can survive when fear of death is all that keeps me alive / The evil of humanity I thought I could resist is taking it's toll and starting to persist / Perplexed as to why I'm so full of hate / Distrust of motive I just can't relate / To you or any of your kind / No human on the Earth is at the level of my mind / Ongoing conflict, anguish inside my head / All hope for the better is as good as dead / The world at large breeds all frauds / Refuse to fit their dye - forever outlawed / FOREVER OUTLAWED / My smile is a disguise for my inner pain / Yet for me to smile is such a strain / Doomed to a life of letdown and failure / Harsh actuality is there will be no savior / Despair overwhelms, no faith in tomorrow / Reality's absurdity delivers only sorrow / Find a manic escape / I must inebriate / With every swig I laugh at fate / Pierce this jaded state / Shun the progress of man - futility abound / Until the essence of life is driven through the ground